“He (Gurov) had two lives: one, open, seen and known by all who cared to know, full of relative truth and of relative falsehood, exactly like the lives of his friends and acquaintances; and another life running its course in secret. And through some strange, perhaps accidental, conjunction of circumstances, everything that was essential, of interest and of value to him, everything in where he was sincere and did not deceive himself, everything that made the kernel of his life, was hidden from other people; and all that was false in him, the sheath in which he hid himself to conceal the truth – such, for instance, as his work in the bank, his discussions at the club, his “lower race”, his presence with his wife at anniversary festivities – all that was open.”
“The Lady With The Dog” by Anton Chekhov
You have two lives, even if you are not a hypocrite. Even though you do not betray your spouse, you have two lives.